I think I cried more today than yesterday…maybe there was too many logistics to allow for real emotions. This morning I went over to Nagymama’s for some leftovers and coffee and lay in her bed listening to Autumn 🍁 Leaves. The amount of times I heard that (dedi’s ringtone) on my moms phone… It was good and needed and I know it was time, but I also know her absence will he felt.
We drove up to Tahoe today to place her ashes in the lake. Man I really went in deep with this experience. I think these last few weeks are the most spiritual I have ever felt.
Lake Tahoe, the most beautiful lake in the world!!! Some say it’s cold, which it is. But man if it’s not the most refreshing body of water I’ve ever swam in, and today was no exception. It didn’t feel cold at first. Not sure if I volunteered or was nominated, but I just knew I would be the one to place the ashes down at the bottom. It’s one of the ways I feel close to my mom because we share a similar sense of doing things.
Everyone was on Sebi’s boat except my mom, Edwin and myself. (thanks Edwin for always staying close) Mom and I scouted for the right spot. Close to the house, about 100’ straight off the pier, but only ~12’ deep. I swam down, placed it in the sand as best I could, and cane up for air. Immediately everyone began tossing rose petals into the lake. It was a beautiful and serene experience.
And then of course a champagne 🥂 toast. Happy Days ❤️ 💜
